Song of the day: Crazy sunshine-The Pillows
Movie of the day: My neighbor totoro
Color of the day: Sky blue
Food of the day: Boo berry cerial
Well, I really have not updated,I'm kind of banned from the computer ahahaha.
WELL!
I kept getting these threats of people saying their going to jump me and stab me, ahh..metal, not good.
Well, My friends kept calling me and telling me not to go to school, BECAUSE of that reason.
Teddy got herself suspended from school, well mom and I went over to Rosa's to talk about the situation...
AND..it was teddy taking people's words out of CONTEXT Yet again.
Well..We have everything settled (So far)
And i finally have been having better days.
And if anyone comes up to me and goes "I TOLD YOU SO" I will beat them to a fucking pulp ahahaha.
Literally!
Well, im happier then anything, I get to see my favorite cousin, AND! Where moving.
NOT TELLING YOU WHERE~
Cause i don't want you stalking me.
Nice Sunday morning, no clouds in the sky, perfect weather..THE SNOWS FINALLY MELTING!
I'm getting the plane tickets soon to go to Mississippi to visit Granny, and Chris.
Am sitting here with my ripped jeans, special hat and my mickey mouse shirt on. (yeah..childish)
I'm REALLY SICK AND TIRED! Of having to sleep on Franks LUMPY ASS COUCH!
My back is KILLING ME!
But its alright..
Im rather worried about Aubrey..
alot..
I cant say why..But really...
And i found out all the people that want to Date me..and i just want to be..Single?
Kind of hate dating people..I don't know how to react to hugs..nor anything.
And i don't even have any feeling of Ohhh i care about you a lot.
ALSO...Thinking again.
I was sitting their, and looking at these kids, I was pushing Akaash on the swing and some kids wanted me to push them too on swings..Its kind of funny how small and..weird children are..
They grow up by the ways their parents treat them..
And people are just so weird..How your mind is a THIN line from..Stupidity/insanity..and Intelligence
And when your a teenager, your still considered a kid.
And Immaturity is not counted..Because..when your a teenager..you just need to learn what to say when to say it and act when to act..theirs moments to act like a spaz...and theirs moments where not too.
How funny and stupid i see people older then me making themselves think OH their so smart, But their not.
They think that just because i'm younger then them, that they can think of what im going to think or say..but you know what, their wrong, LONG WRONG!
Im going to winnie kinne castle today, its so much fun..
real castle built here..IN OUR CITY!
Im going their with Aubrey,Rui,Momo and Sanji.
yeah..all girls...so what? Where going to just plainly run around.
im bringing a basket of food and snacks, duck umbrella,my digital camera, and a Frisbee
cant wait. Where gona go hiking and running..and just stupid stuff..
its actually kind of warm out today, so it might dry up soon.
Allright moms going to wake up soon, and im sneaking on.
BYYEE!.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Hate site?
Oh wow.
Okay, just got off the phone with Aubrey.
Ohkay.
All my calculations were correct about Teddys Immature plan.
She said that Miranda, said that I have created a HATE SITE, About misa.
First thing.
I would never do that to misa or anyone, even if they murdered my family.
I have had that happen to me, so Two wrongs dont make a right.
But i really am Dying of laughter that she actually STOOPED AS LOW! As to grab Miranda and people who HAVE NO RIGHT to be in this VERRY OLD situation.
Grow up, You allready IMBARRASSED yourself in public, And really.
I didnt do anything to you, so shut up.
you thinking my BLOG is the hate site?
If so, i have NO OTHER SITE!
So now, i have had it with your immaturity.
really,grow up.
Stop dragging people who have NO RIGHT To be in this.
Okay, just got off the phone with Aubrey.
Ohkay.
All my calculations were correct about Teddys Immature plan.
She said that Miranda, said that I have created a HATE SITE, About misa.
First thing.
I would never do that to misa or anyone, even if they murdered my family.
I have had that happen to me, so Two wrongs dont make a right.
But i really am Dying of laughter that she actually STOOPED AS LOW! As to grab Miranda and people who HAVE NO RIGHT to be in this VERRY OLD situation.
Grow up, You allready IMBARRASSED yourself in public, And really.
I didnt do anything to you, so shut up.
you thinking my BLOG is the hate site?
If so, i have NO OTHER SITE!
So now, i have had it with your immaturity.
really,grow up.
Stop dragging people who have NO RIGHT To be in this.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Dunkin Donuts
Lol, getting sick again. sheesh.
Well Aubrey woke me up at 4:00 in the morning to ask me whats gona be up, Oi..i finally get myself to sleep and she has to wake me, but yeah, i talked to her, and about what Dani told me so i just told her i was gona go that afternoon to talk to Misa.
had a great time, got to sleep in till 10:00 and mom bought me some Dunkin Donuts.
I got to hang out with my friends, and we laughed alot in Computer class.
Mario kept on using the LOL Button, over and over, with Ms word, Over and over and over..just holding the buttons down, me, christos, and two other people look over from typing and just see his screen with HUGE! CAPITALIZED! LOL'S! Zipping its way down the screen. And you know how it tells you how many pages you typed right? Well it became so far, that when the bell rang to go to lunch, it became to 569 pages! ahahaha! that was hillarious.
Well, at lunch i was stanging thier, and Kate and squishy, Inu and the guy i call Luigi came up, Kate offered to go inside the Cafe and get some Cookies, so i whent "Yeah lets go"
untill Teddy waltz up, rudely saying.
"YOUR THE REASON WHY ROSA CRYED YESTERDAY! AND THE REASON WHY SHE HAS A COUNCELOR NOW YOU BITCH!" I just looked at her and said "I TOLD YOU! WE GOT OVER IT!,. I WAS GOING TO TALK TO HER TODAY!" And she started this whole rucus and fuss about stupid immature crap, calling me a Liar..and such E.T.C.
Then when she said. "I CANT WAIT TILL YOU MOVE" I replyed with a smile "OH YEAH! ME NEITHER! SO I WONT SEE YOUR FUCKING UGLY FACE ANYMORE!" So in that cumback, she just said, She was going to punch me. i just replyed "Sure, DO IT! Cause your going to get yourself in TROUBLE not me!"
Kate became pissed..squishy..everyone, all at Teddy..and we just didnt enter the Cafe cause Teddy whent thier, and just stood around talking.
Inu kept saying how horrible that was and wtf is up with Teddy.
ALSO! I found out BULLSHIT!..Fake, madeup shit she wrenched about towards Dani.
but, i dont care. Her loss anyway *Looks over and shrugs*
Then, in her Vial attempt to get me in some sort of trouble, blabbed to the principal, and her saying she wanted to punch me INFRONT OF WITNESSES!..Just made it rather funny, Laughing inside, i pulled it cool. Told the Princilal and the security guard Linda exactally what happened, even the people around me that saw said the same thing.
Teddy got Furious, and wammered about started crying and such.
I gave the principal Misas' name and such, Well after that i called my mother on my cellphone, Shese going to talk to Rosa's mother, and also the principal called both Teddy and Misa's parents about the Mishap.
Also i found that Teddy was reading my blog the whole entire time. So whatever, let her read, i dont mind. ^.^
Well..After lunch, i got Escorted, i am never alone in the Halls ever, so i know nothing is going to happen to me.
I told my Guidance councelor everything, even the other teachers like Mister Valastigis and my math teachers, also my soshial studies teacher.
Well, last period i usually take the left hallway, but i just decided to take a right instead, cause i kinda felt funny about the situation, i know that Teddy wants to Kick my ass for something LONG GONE! And totally forgotten about. And knowing her, she will actually go down and bribe people and such just for a little hint of Justice.
So when i walked down the Right and entered down the next one on the left, i looked down the hallway, and guess who was waiting for me at the end of the left hallway? Joyce, My insane ex mello, and 2 other people.
Thinking to myself, she actually stooped that low to actually talk to my insane revilting bitch of an Ex she hates JUST to kick my ass?
I think Violence is intolerable and Immature..
Really, what the hell.
Well, i just scurried away and entered my class without them noticing.
Told Martina and alot of buddies in that class of mine exactally what happend, really..they were all Disgusted in her.
Martina is comin after school with me now, mum drops her off. kinda cool, thats my faveorite class, my last period one, We laugh so HARD! And make the girl next to me wanna puke cause we say really distirbing things well raving out to random music Martina blares out on her Ipod lol.
I swear shese going to break those speakers.
but when we entered mums car and drove away, i told mum exactally what happend.
i swear i can recite everything like Shakespere like im doing now.
Martina joined into the convo about stuff.
Yeah, people do change, i see it everyday, but i really noticed, Teddy hasent, Still the same her, shese even i think going to be..16,17? yeah. and she still acts the same, She solves everything with Violence, and acts REALLY younge for her age, i really Pity that.
But ah well, im leaving soon and thats all that matters, Knowing i have friends, OLD AND NEW. that really care about me.
And still, if she hits me anyway, and i end up in the office.
I dont mind. ^.^ I know exactally everything.
Really, shese making a fuss over something a LONG time ago that she keeps bringing up to Misa herself.
Cry a river, build a Bridge, and get over it.
I did it a LONG time ago, and you should too.
^.^
Am going to go answer my cellphone now, Hope you all have a great day!
Bye bye!
Well Aubrey woke me up at 4:00 in the morning to ask me whats gona be up, Oi..i finally get myself to sleep and she has to wake me, but yeah, i talked to her, and about what Dani told me so i just told her i was gona go that afternoon to talk to Misa.
had a great time, got to sleep in till 10:00 and mom bought me some Dunkin Donuts.
I got to hang out with my friends, and we laughed alot in Computer class.
Mario kept on using the LOL Button, over and over, with Ms word, Over and over and over..just holding the buttons down, me, christos, and two other people look over from typing and just see his screen with HUGE! CAPITALIZED! LOL'S! Zipping its way down the screen. And you know how it tells you how many pages you typed right? Well it became so far, that when the bell rang to go to lunch, it became to 569 pages! ahahaha! that was hillarious.
Well, at lunch i was stanging thier, and Kate and squishy, Inu and the guy i call Luigi came up, Kate offered to go inside the Cafe and get some Cookies, so i whent "Yeah lets go"
untill Teddy waltz up, rudely saying.
"YOUR THE REASON WHY ROSA CRYED YESTERDAY! AND THE REASON WHY SHE HAS A COUNCELOR NOW YOU BITCH!" I just looked at her and said "I TOLD YOU! WE GOT OVER IT!,. I WAS GOING TO TALK TO HER TODAY!" And she started this whole rucus and fuss about stupid immature crap, calling me a Liar..and such E.T.C.
Then when she said. "I CANT WAIT TILL YOU MOVE" I replyed with a smile "OH YEAH! ME NEITHER! SO I WONT SEE YOUR FUCKING UGLY FACE ANYMORE!" So in that cumback, she just said, She was going to punch me. i just replyed "Sure, DO IT! Cause your going to get yourself in TROUBLE not me!"
Kate became pissed..squishy..everyone, all at Teddy..and we just didnt enter the Cafe cause Teddy whent thier, and just stood around talking.
Inu kept saying how horrible that was and wtf is up with Teddy.
ALSO! I found out BULLSHIT!..Fake, madeup shit she wrenched about towards Dani.
but, i dont care. Her loss anyway *Looks over and shrugs*
Then, in her Vial attempt to get me in some sort of trouble, blabbed to the principal, and her saying she wanted to punch me INFRONT OF WITNESSES!..Just made it rather funny, Laughing inside, i pulled it cool. Told the Princilal and the security guard Linda exactally what happened, even the people around me that saw said the same thing.
Teddy got Furious, and wammered about started crying and such.
I gave the principal Misas' name and such, Well after that i called my mother on my cellphone, Shese going to talk to Rosa's mother, and also the principal called both Teddy and Misa's parents about the Mishap.
Also i found that Teddy was reading my blog the whole entire time. So whatever, let her read, i dont mind. ^.^
Well..After lunch, i got Escorted, i am never alone in the Halls ever, so i know nothing is going to happen to me.
I told my Guidance councelor everything, even the other teachers like Mister Valastigis and my math teachers, also my soshial studies teacher.
Well, last period i usually take the left hallway, but i just decided to take a right instead, cause i kinda felt funny about the situation, i know that Teddy wants to Kick my ass for something LONG GONE! And totally forgotten about. And knowing her, she will actually go down and bribe people and such just for a little hint of Justice.
So when i walked down the Right and entered down the next one on the left, i looked down the hallway, and guess who was waiting for me at the end of the left hallway? Joyce, My insane ex mello, and 2 other people.
Thinking to myself, she actually stooped that low to actually talk to my insane revilting bitch of an Ex she hates JUST to kick my ass?
I think Violence is intolerable and Immature..
Really, what the hell.
Well, i just scurried away and entered my class without them noticing.
Told Martina and alot of buddies in that class of mine exactally what happend, really..they were all Disgusted in her.
Martina is comin after school with me now, mum drops her off. kinda cool, thats my faveorite class, my last period one, We laugh so HARD! And make the girl next to me wanna puke cause we say really distirbing things well raving out to random music Martina blares out on her Ipod lol.
I swear shese going to break those speakers.
but when we entered mums car and drove away, i told mum exactally what happend.
i swear i can recite everything like Shakespere like im doing now.
Martina joined into the convo about stuff.
Yeah, people do change, i see it everyday, but i really noticed, Teddy hasent, Still the same her, shese even i think going to be..16,17? yeah. and she still acts the same, She solves everything with Violence, and acts REALLY younge for her age, i really Pity that.
But ah well, im leaving soon and thats all that matters, Knowing i have friends, OLD AND NEW. that really care about me.
And still, if she hits me anyway, and i end up in the office.
I dont mind. ^.^ I know exactally everything.
Really, shese making a fuss over something a LONG time ago that she keeps bringing up to Misa herself.
Cry a river, build a Bridge, and get over it.
I did it a LONG time ago, and you should too.
^.^
Am going to go answer my cellphone now, Hope you all have a great day!
Bye bye!
Sunday, March 23, 2008
you MAKE ME LAUGH
Not my fault YOU are pushing all your friends away.
Your the one telling me that?
Telling me how stupid i am? I hear that EVERY DAY..EVERY SINGLE SOLITARY DAY!
I have simply had it.
Fine, hence you want this friendship to end, then so be it.
Calling me a Liar...ABOUT WHAT? Tell me exactally everything!
Oh and thinking, the world is all illusion to me and out to get me in my mind, How exactally DO you know that?
from here, everything is actually becoming a Cup of tea, and i'm actually happy with myself and allot because of some tips you said to me a LONG TIME AGO..
Just because,Misa and I Are not being friends ANY MORE! And you not being able to COPE with it. DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO FORCE ME!
I AM NOT A DOORMAT!
When we were not friends before, I WENT THEIR AND MENDED IT BY TALKING TO HER!
Now its her turn.
I told her, straight out, i am not her FRIEND!
You have no RIGHT to come between this!
Nor do you have the right to make FUN of me..I even mailed out your cosplay suit yesterday...i truely HOPE it comes back so i shall BURN IT and the whole likes of your MEMORY.
IF THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT THEN SO BE IT.
I don't know what has GOTTEN into you recently...
All of THIS because of a small stupid chat you had, when Kei mentioned me to Misa, and her saying that i Hate her.
GET THIS LOUD AND CLEAR!
I..DO NOT! HATE HER!
Nor will i ever will be.
I am fucking DISGUSTED with her, and i really HATED the way she treated me!
I always came over..ALWAYS CALLED! Even when i went to talk to her in school...She treated me like i was something that i was not!
I feel like a godamned SKIPPING record here...
Also..
It was all a LONG TIME AGO!
We've cried a river, built a bridge, and got the hell over it.
Dosent mean you have to be an ass wipe just to make yourself feel better cause you want us all to be Chit-chatting to each other in big funny chat rooms like the Good 'Ole-times.
Im not going to be her friend.
I have said it LOUD AND CLEAR!
Yes i am moving away, I see her happy with A LOT of new people.
She has new friends, and i do to. Were both HAPPY.
Stop forcing and telling me what to do all the time Danita...I really cared about you.
And yeah, i went to your every whim.
I was fine with the
"GO TO BED!" stuff...
But it felt like you were saying
"GO OVER TO MISA'S HENCE YOU LIVE NEXT DOOR! AND APOLOGIZE! JUST GO BE FRIENDS WITH HER!"
Im not a Puppet. I have let you tell me what to do...But its not cool when you act this way.
Im not DUMB...im not STUPID!...I am none of those things.
I never Lied to you..
You thinking i will be hurting myself over this? No i will not.
Just cause you want me to, I wont.
Im moving on.
Other then that.
Easter time!
Today was easter! It was so funny! I was sleeping on the bottom bunk, and got woken up by Akassh jumping on me lol.
Shaan was excited, and everyone was happy..Mom cooked this really great breakfast (usually her cooking sucks XD) and we all played monopoly and shoots and ladders, I went and visited my grandmothers for a while, hung out with my cousins and we played Football in the back. I really had a great day n.n
When i got back to Franks, Shaan and Akaash opened easter baskets and mom gave me a new cellphone, So i went online to Activate it lol..Turned Franks messenger on so i can wish my friends Happy easter BUT..his messenger is RETARDED I SWEAR! It does not show which friends are online, and the only way you can chat with anyone, is if they login OR message you! XD But it was alright, i managed to message everyone and wish them a Happy easter as i was showing funny videos to Shaan on the computer.
I kept messing up on activating my Phone and managed to kill the phone number on accident, so i had to call the company lol.the lady..didn't speak up..so it became trouble ahahaha.
After that we went out to eat at Bugaboo creek..i had some BBQ Ribs lol..Got home and went back on my messenger for a few, and searched up some more BJD's.
And something came up with Danita i don't know....*sigh*
Other then that stupid crap, I had a great day for ounce!
Dad actually called and wanted to see me next weekend, i talked to Aubrey and were going to go to the bookstore tomorrow with momo and mimi and Layla! ah thats gonna be cool n.n
Chase called again...meh i think am just going to go to the Arcade with him on Thursday, at least thats something to do.
I have A LOT! Of packing!
So i don't think I'll be on much!
moving in...a month i think!
If ya need me, Call my new Cell, if you don't have it! then just ask me for the number when i'm Online! Get it? got it? Good!
Logging out now! Bye!
Your the one telling me that?
Telling me how stupid i am? I hear that EVERY DAY..EVERY SINGLE SOLITARY DAY!
I have simply had it.
Fine, hence you want this friendship to end, then so be it.
Calling me a Liar...ABOUT WHAT? Tell me exactally everything!
Oh and thinking, the world is all illusion to me and out to get me in my mind, How exactally DO you know that?
from here, everything is actually becoming a Cup of tea, and i'm actually happy with myself and allot because of some tips you said to me a LONG TIME AGO..
Just because,Misa and I Are not being friends ANY MORE! And you not being able to COPE with it. DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO FORCE ME!
I AM NOT A DOORMAT!
When we were not friends before, I WENT THEIR AND MENDED IT BY TALKING TO HER!
Now its her turn.
I told her, straight out, i am not her FRIEND!
You have no RIGHT to come between this!
Nor do you have the right to make FUN of me..I even mailed out your cosplay suit yesterday...i truely HOPE it comes back so i shall BURN IT and the whole likes of your MEMORY.
IF THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT THEN SO BE IT.
I don't know what has GOTTEN into you recently...
All of THIS because of a small stupid chat you had, when Kei mentioned me to Misa, and her saying that i Hate her.
GET THIS LOUD AND CLEAR!
I..DO NOT! HATE HER!
Nor will i ever will be.
I am fucking DISGUSTED with her, and i really HATED the way she treated me!
I always came over..ALWAYS CALLED! Even when i went to talk to her in school...She treated me like i was something that i was not!
I feel like a godamned SKIPPING record here...
Also..
It was all a LONG TIME AGO!
We've cried a river, built a bridge, and got the hell over it.
Dosent mean you have to be an ass wipe just to make yourself feel better cause you want us all to be Chit-chatting to each other in big funny chat rooms like the Good 'Ole-times.
Im not going to be her friend.
I have said it LOUD AND CLEAR!
Yes i am moving away, I see her happy with A LOT of new people.
She has new friends, and i do to. Were both HAPPY.
Stop forcing and telling me what to do all the time Danita...I really cared about you.
And yeah, i went to your every whim.
I was fine with the
"GO TO BED!" stuff...
But it felt like you were saying
"GO OVER TO MISA'S HENCE YOU LIVE NEXT DOOR! AND APOLOGIZE! JUST GO BE FRIENDS WITH HER!"
Im not a Puppet. I have let you tell me what to do...But its not cool when you act this way.
Im not DUMB...im not STUPID!...I am none of those things.
I never Lied to you..
You thinking i will be hurting myself over this? No i will not.
Just cause you want me to, I wont.
Im moving on.
Other then that.
Easter time!
Today was easter! It was so funny! I was sleeping on the bottom bunk, and got woken up by Akassh jumping on me lol.
Shaan was excited, and everyone was happy..Mom cooked this really great breakfast (usually her cooking sucks XD) and we all played monopoly and shoots and ladders, I went and visited my grandmothers for a while, hung out with my cousins and we played Football in the back. I really had a great day n.n
When i got back to Franks, Shaan and Akaash opened easter baskets and mom gave me a new cellphone, So i went online to Activate it lol..Turned Franks messenger on so i can wish my friends Happy easter BUT..his messenger is RETARDED I SWEAR! It does not show which friends are online, and the only way you can chat with anyone, is if they login OR message you! XD But it was alright, i managed to message everyone and wish them a Happy easter as i was showing funny videos to Shaan on the computer.
I kept messing up on activating my Phone and managed to kill the phone number on accident, so i had to call the company lol.the lady..didn't speak up..so it became trouble ahahaha.
After that we went out to eat at Bugaboo creek..i had some BBQ Ribs lol..Got home and went back on my messenger for a few, and searched up some more BJD's.
And something came up with Danita i don't know....*sigh*
Other then that stupid crap, I had a great day for ounce!
Dad actually called and wanted to see me next weekend, i talked to Aubrey and were going to go to the bookstore tomorrow with momo and mimi and Layla! ah thats gonna be cool n.n
Chase called again...meh i think am just going to go to the Arcade with him on Thursday, at least thats something to do.
I have A LOT! Of packing!
So i don't think I'll be on much!
moving in...a month i think!
If ya need me, Call my new Cell, if you don't have it! then just ask me for the number when i'm Online! Get it? got it? Good!
Logging out now! Bye!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Rambling on again.
Movie of the day: Muppet treasure Island
Song of the day: FFUnlimited ending theme 1
Color of the day: SHINY! XD...Jk..i mean Orange~
Noticed I have not been eating, but I just don't feel much anymore.
Also got into a fight with a close friend of mine, Yet again.....
Yes, yes..Am finally not sick anymore!
BUT!...am killing myself with.
1: Lack of sleep
2: Stress
3: Forgetting medication....
4: Forgetting to eat...
Sitting out on my pourch today watching the sun rise, sence i havent had my medication..Being hypersensitive...the dim light murdered my eyes...So now i have to wear these perscription sunglasses allover again..damnit all!
I look like a blind person when i wear them..All black and circley and stuff..
Well..I do get worried..verry easily, and if i get overworried, yes i know i say stuff i kinda shouldent, thats also why i THINK i lost a friend of mine..Ah well...Loose everyone anyway.
Well...I have had alot on my dumb mind recently..And i have been trying to et outside as much as possible as i can..(Tho the sun kills me..even in the shade) i still try my best, cause the weather has lightend up a bit, and why waste it?
And Also (sorry for changing subjects) Aubrey...Shese a verry close friend of mine, Towers over me, she is adorable, green eyes and Mahogany hair, she always stairs at me o.O; When i visit shese all *STARE* Non-stop...And she keeps on making me watch a crapload of Vampire movies and such..
Yes...I kinda dont like vampires (Dani knows the reason..and like what she told me..where both taking things to the grave with us) But yeah...Its wierd how she treats me..Am fine and all...but o.o i kind of feel uncomfortable when im around her, and if you get her and Momo together...they just grope eachother or drag me into it as i try to get away.
I HATE BEING TOUCHED!
Unless its a hug..Hugs are good.
But alot of times, If you go to hug me, or stick a hand on my sholder or something, i just Tense up and shake(Part of whats wrong with me) Other then that, back to Aubrey...Well..I was talking to her on the phone, she had Momo over..I asked if i should just go cause its rude being on the phone when you have a visitor, she just put me on speaker.
Okay..Momo is Bisexual girl...and Aubrey is so straight she makes a ruler look crooked, and the whole time, thier making these jokes, and making noises. AND OF COARSE! 14 going to be 15 year old Male mind at work here...And with two girls destroying it and making it want to sit in a corner and cry..Yeah..
Am sitting here like "Uh...bad thoughts, really..can i go now?" Gets worse that they start talking about how soft boobs are...and thier like "Oh Kohii-kun, we should have you get a squish, you know you'd like ittt"
ONE! I AM A FRESHMAN!
AND THIER LIKE...O.O TALL PEOPLE! AND SCARY!! I DUN TRUST GIRLS NOR WILL I EVER STOOP AS LOW AS TO TOUCH ONE IN THAT SORT OF WAY!
*Shudders*
Why does everyone want to molest me?
*Chibi sob*
Other then that, Chase asked me out again..I really dont know what to do, i feel as if hese stalking me and thiers nothing else i shold do but say "Fine i'll just go out with you stop wining.."
Its getting annoying...
Plus, we have to celibrate this Easter early with my family this year because of alot of stuff coming up, ALSO! I didnt know this weekend was the anime convenction! funny stuff here!
But, am still going through a tough time...dosent help that "She" Keeps calling me..thogh i keep trying to forget...
And the rapist Mello...WORDS DO NOT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I HATE HER! Shese still attempting to take my friends away from me.
..
Sucks..
Also, I have been trying things to forget..my new councilor, i call him Mr.Bob he really helps me with the stress...He said...put how you feel into the hobbies you do..
I noticed..My Violin is better...My guitar is WAY better...even my drawing and clay sculpting! The story i wrote became a hit with everyone at moms work, and even my school..Also i have attempted GARDENING AND COOKING! n.n my cat ate my precious batflowers i have been attempting to grow...for...4 WEEKS NOW! And they were finally sprouting...But yeah...i gave her time out...no treats for 5 days and a tap on the but and a spray from the water sprayer..
I know it sounds mean..but i didnt hurt her...just showed her...dont eat my 15$ plants i saved up for!!
lol
Also my faveorite cousin brittany is coming down, shese dragging me to boston with my 3 other faveorite cousins for the weekend, were going to china town..and all over hells creation in boston hahahaha.
I really cant wait!
Everything seems to be gradually getting better!
Wich is good! and whoohew!
wow...am actually rambling myself to sleep..Think am gona go take a nap, but i'll beback soon!
Night everyone!
Song of the day: FFUnlimited ending theme 1
Color of the day: SHINY! XD...Jk..i mean Orange~
Noticed I have not been eating, but I just don't feel much anymore.
Also got into a fight with a close friend of mine, Yet again.....
Yes, yes..Am finally not sick anymore!
BUT!...am killing myself with.
1: Lack of sleep
2: Stress
3: Forgetting medication....
4: Forgetting to eat...
Sitting out on my pourch today watching the sun rise, sence i havent had my medication..Being hypersensitive...the dim light murdered my eyes...So now i have to wear these perscription sunglasses allover again..damnit all!
I look like a blind person when i wear them..All black and circley and stuff..
Well..I do get worried..verry easily, and if i get overworried, yes i know i say stuff i kinda shouldent, thats also why i THINK i lost a friend of mine..Ah well...Loose everyone anyway.
Well...I have had alot on my dumb mind recently..And i have been trying to et outside as much as possible as i can..(Tho the sun kills me..even in the shade) i still try my best, cause the weather has lightend up a bit, and why waste it?
And Also (sorry for changing subjects) Aubrey...Shese a verry close friend of mine, Towers over me, she is adorable, green eyes and Mahogany hair, she always stairs at me o.O; When i visit shese all *STARE* Non-stop...And she keeps on making me watch a crapload of Vampire movies and such..
Yes...I kinda dont like vampires (Dani knows the reason..and like what she told me..where both taking things to the grave with us) But yeah...Its wierd how she treats me..Am fine and all...but o.o i kind of feel uncomfortable when im around her, and if you get her and Momo together...they just grope eachother or drag me into it as i try to get away.
I HATE BEING TOUCHED!
Unless its a hug..Hugs are good.
But alot of times, If you go to hug me, or stick a hand on my sholder or something, i just Tense up and shake(Part of whats wrong with me) Other then that, back to Aubrey...Well..I was talking to her on the phone, she had Momo over..I asked if i should just go cause its rude being on the phone when you have a visitor, she just put me on speaker.
Okay..Momo is Bisexual girl...and Aubrey is so straight she makes a ruler look crooked, and the whole time, thier making these jokes, and making noises. AND OF COARSE! 14 going to be 15 year old Male mind at work here...And with two girls destroying it and making it want to sit in a corner and cry..Yeah..
Am sitting here like "Uh...bad thoughts, really..can i go now?" Gets worse that they start talking about how soft boobs are...and thier like "Oh Kohii-kun, we should have you get a squish, you know you'd like ittt"
ONE! I AM A FRESHMAN!
AND THIER LIKE...O.O TALL PEOPLE! AND SCARY!! I DUN TRUST GIRLS NOR WILL I EVER STOOP AS LOW AS TO TOUCH ONE IN THAT SORT OF WAY!
*Shudders*
Why does everyone want to molest me?
*Chibi sob*
Other then that, Chase asked me out again..I really dont know what to do, i feel as if hese stalking me and thiers nothing else i shold do but say "Fine i'll just go out with you stop wining.."
Its getting annoying...
Plus, we have to celibrate this Easter early with my family this year because of alot of stuff coming up, ALSO! I didnt know this weekend was the anime convenction! funny stuff here!
But, am still going through a tough time...dosent help that "She" Keeps calling me..thogh i keep trying to forget...
And the rapist Mello...WORDS DO NOT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I HATE HER! Shese still attempting to take my friends away from me.
..
Sucks..
Also, I have been trying things to forget..my new councilor, i call him Mr.Bob he really helps me with the stress...He said...put how you feel into the hobbies you do..
I noticed..My Violin is better...My guitar is WAY better...even my drawing and clay sculpting! The story i wrote became a hit with everyone at moms work, and even my school..Also i have attempted GARDENING AND COOKING! n.n my cat ate my precious batflowers i have been attempting to grow...for...4 WEEKS NOW! And they were finally sprouting...But yeah...i gave her time out...no treats for 5 days and a tap on the but and a spray from the water sprayer..
I know it sounds mean..but i didnt hurt her...just showed her...dont eat my 15$ plants i saved up for!!
lol
Also my faveorite cousin brittany is coming down, shese dragging me to boston with my 3 other faveorite cousins for the weekend, were going to china town..and all over hells creation in boston hahahaha.
I really cant wait!
Everything seems to be gradually getting better!
Wich is good! and whoohew!
wow...am actually rambling myself to sleep..Think am gona go take a nap, but i'll beback soon!
Night everyone!
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
MoAr ShIt and A story
Ahh..seems like im surrounded by fucking lies all the time...
Well..Mom started on telling me about my dad, cause i told her dads side, and she said he hit her, thats why she broke up with him..I dont know.
Plus i've been sick...
because of me..
yes yes, laugh it up.
I dont know, its my bad month...Her birthday..The month my friend passed on, when i found out about my father...and more bullshit.
so im always tence this month anyway.
I stopped taking my medication...so am just in pain constantly..and i feel as if noone cares..thogh i know two people who truely do..and i dont ever want to hurt them in my entire life..but i allready did.
so am broken..got myself sicker then anything, im confused..and i havent slept for 2 days now..
every time i try to sleep..my cat wither wakes me up..or i sleep for about 5 minuets and wake up screaming or crying from these gorey, horendous nightmares i've been having non-stop.
and to the worst part, i dont even know if im dreaming or not anymore, one secont i look over, and i see a fucking dead person lying on the godamned floor choking up blood through its eyesockets and i scream shake my head, and look back, its gone. and my aunts just looking at me like "Wtf is wrong with you lately?"
Plus..I really killed my insides yesterday for chugging down so much energy drinks im so afraid to fall asleep..
i tryed taking my medication today, but i threw them up this morning well driving to school onaxident, then i just layed in bed the rest of the day..
when i felt a bit better i got to go see one of the houses we might be moving to. untill mom totally bashed my happyness by telling me about shit that i really dont want to be hearing, that made me want to spyral and fucking die right thier...
I have been in a pissy mood...because i really have alot on my sholders, and i just dont know what to do..
Other then that shit.
I had to write a story for reading class, it was 120 pages long, like our own version of a forbidden love based kinda like Romeo and Juliet.
Mine was about a vampire with a mortal whom he loved, and he got invited to a Masquerade for a meeting with other vampires, and she annoyed him to go, so they argued and she won, so when they whent the other vampires found out that she was a mortal, killed her and he killed himself a few seconts later.
yes...verry short horrible discription of it, but you get the point.
Everyone loves it, my teacher wanted to keep it, my mom brought it to work and literally everyone read it, and wrote some thank yous on a seperate piece of paper.
i read it to my Memere, and she absolutely loved it..thogh she hates vampires o_o
well..My head hurts..
im hungry..but about to puke.
i look so bloody Ghastly its not even funny.
well..Hope everything turns out better..if now..who knows..
Logging out.
Well..Mom started on telling me about my dad, cause i told her dads side, and she said he hit her, thats why she broke up with him..I dont know.
Plus i've been sick...
because of me..
yes yes, laugh it up.
I dont know, its my bad month...Her birthday..The month my friend passed on, when i found out about my father...and more bullshit.
so im always tence this month anyway.
I stopped taking my medication...so am just in pain constantly..and i feel as if noone cares..thogh i know two people who truely do..and i dont ever want to hurt them in my entire life..but i allready did.
so am broken..got myself sicker then anything, im confused..and i havent slept for 2 days now..
every time i try to sleep..my cat wither wakes me up..or i sleep for about 5 minuets and wake up screaming or crying from these gorey, horendous nightmares i've been having non-stop.
and to the worst part, i dont even know if im dreaming or not anymore, one secont i look over, and i see a fucking dead person lying on the godamned floor choking up blood through its eyesockets and i scream shake my head, and look back, its gone. and my aunts just looking at me like "Wtf is wrong with you lately?"
Plus..I really killed my insides yesterday for chugging down so much energy drinks im so afraid to fall asleep..
i tryed taking my medication today, but i threw them up this morning well driving to school onaxident, then i just layed in bed the rest of the day..
when i felt a bit better i got to go see one of the houses we might be moving to. untill mom totally bashed my happyness by telling me about shit that i really dont want to be hearing, that made me want to spyral and fucking die right thier...
I have been in a pissy mood...because i really have alot on my sholders, and i just dont know what to do..
Other then that shit.
I had to write a story for reading class, it was 120 pages long, like our own version of a forbidden love based kinda like Romeo and Juliet.
Mine was about a vampire with a mortal whom he loved, and he got invited to a Masquerade for a meeting with other vampires, and she annoyed him to go, so they argued and she won, so when they whent the other vampires found out that she was a mortal, killed her and he killed himself a few seconts later.
yes...verry short horrible discription of it, but you get the point.
Everyone loves it, my teacher wanted to keep it, my mom brought it to work and literally everyone read it, and wrote some thank yous on a seperate piece of paper.
i read it to my Memere, and she absolutely loved it..thogh she hates vampires o_o
well..My head hurts..
im hungry..but about to puke.
i look so bloody Ghastly its not even funny.
well..Hope everything turns out better..if now..who knows..
Logging out.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
NiGhTmArEs
What could be better then a swandive into the ashvault?
*cough* well okay...I havent been sleeping right..
I NEVER Really sleep at night anyway..but my doctors have been trying to use these medications these REALLY strong ass ones that you cant get up until the 4 or 5 houres are up..
well that dosent work...But...I kept having the same dream over and over...that kept waking me up every 5 minuets making me wake up screaming..then getting up..to take a shower or pase around the living room shaking to death as my cat stalked me..
well the dream was about..I was climbing a ladder of a tall sky scraper...And i sat over the edge, and then Dani calls on my cellphone...i answer and she screams "I FUCKING HATE YOU!!! DIE!!! BURN IN HELL!!" i would throw my cellphone off the edge, and hold my head saying "what the fuck have i done?" a while after that...i would get up..and jump..crash through a store and land on some girl...then the shadows would appear from the floors like those folloers of seproth from final fantasy 7...but they would chase me..i would end up in like a high speed procuit with that..
then this book would appear and i'd get closed in it...i'd wake up laying in these flowery grass... all sunny and happy I look up and thiers misa..Thu...Dani...looking down at me smiling..they help me up and were all laughing, and go to the book store, i pick up this book, and its a fortune reader book..and each time i do it, it would show the Satanic symbol and blood would start to consume my hands as i was screaming, i look around and thu screams "HESE SUMMONED!? RUN!!" I just kept screaming, the place would grow dark, and this monster would tear me apart...i could feel it...burning in each grasp..i'd wake up like this...every time...Its horrible..
Anyone know what i could do?
*cough* well okay...I havent been sleeping right..
I NEVER Really sleep at night anyway..but my doctors have been trying to use these medications these REALLY strong ass ones that you cant get up until the 4 or 5 houres are up..
well that dosent work...But...I kept having the same dream over and over...that kept waking me up every 5 minuets making me wake up screaming..then getting up..to take a shower or pase around the living room shaking to death as my cat stalked me..
well the dream was about..I was climbing a ladder of a tall sky scraper...And i sat over the edge, and then Dani calls on my cellphone...i answer and she screams "I FUCKING HATE YOU!!! DIE!!! BURN IN HELL!!" i would throw my cellphone off the edge, and hold my head saying "what the fuck have i done?" a while after that...i would get up..and jump..crash through a store and land on some girl...then the shadows would appear from the floors like those folloers of seproth from final fantasy 7...but they would chase me..i would end up in like a high speed procuit with that..
then this book would appear and i'd get closed in it...i'd wake up laying in these flowery grass... all sunny and happy I look up and thiers misa..Thu...Dani...looking down at me smiling..they help me up and were all laughing, and go to the book store, i pick up this book, and its a fortune reader book..and each time i do it, it would show the Satanic symbol and blood would start to consume my hands as i was screaming, i look around and thu screams "HESE SUMMONED!? RUN!!" I just kept screaming, the place would grow dark, and this monster would tear me apart...i could feel it...burning in each grasp..i'd wake up like this...every time...Its horrible..
Anyone know what i could do?
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Time over dads
Well, i left friday to stay over at dads place, after the band broke up, he just has the recording studio full of equipment, so he allowed me to plug in my electric guitar and play for a while hahaha.
Am still verry worried about my sis Danita, but am still happy to get away from the Hellhole for a while, I never really know much about Things like Motorcycles, but i have been helping my dad work on a Harley davidson oh it was so cool! >w<
I even know how to play major Riffs on Guitar now lol.
When i was younger, i never knew how my parents actually broke up, Cause mom always changes her story, and dad never told me, so when we were working on the harley together, i sat back and asked him.
He told me.
Well, and i found out, he didnt walk out when my mom was born..she lyed to me..
Okay, my dad always worked in a plastic factory, 16 dollars an hour for mom, mom didnt have a job at the time, and sence she just turned 20 when she had me, dad always helped her out, so a while after that, she wanted to try cause dad asked her, because he cant afford all this at ounce, so her friend got her a job at Mc Donalds, and dad had to drive her thier after work every day, He became really tighred cause i always kept him up constantly..And such..so she said that her "Friends" will drive her thier, dad thought "Oh that would be great... untill one day a car pulled out about up the street, and the streets always quiet so dad looked outside, and saw that thier was only one head in the car...about...20 minuets later he saw another come up..and guess who walked out of the car? My mom..Yeah...
Well..thinking back on this..finally knowing both sides of the story makes me think alot, i really think that my fathers telling the truth, cause whenever i mention anything to mom she snapps at me or something.
Now today, on saturday, me and dad worked on the bike together hahaha, and kept forgetting parts!
but now everythings perfect! and it should be able to ride on in the summer hopegfully!
Grease is a BITCH to wash off!!
My two step sisters Lilly and Amanda decided to paint my nails when i fell asleep o_o;
And amanda always calls me Pete..You know Pete from fallout boy O.o; Its so wierd how fangirls are!
hahaha other then that.
I found the best shampoo! called Tea Tree, oh it works awesome! Got the grease off my arms..hair...face...hands...lol
but the soap burns! XD And it has a Minty smell to it..But it works!
right now i finally got myself ahold of a COMPUTER!~ WHOO!
My dads girlfriend Coreen is babysitting these little kids,and the little ones invited me over so i can help out in watching them o_o; THIS HOUSE IS HUGE!!
Ahahahaha! But am going to have to log out in a few seconts because..
1) The owner of the houses computer
2) Am supposed to be helping to watch these little Demons
3) OMFG EASTER EGG PAINTING IM RIGHT THIER~~ <3
Lol..*cough* you never heard that.. allright
Peace
Logging out.
Am still verry worried about my sis Danita, but am still happy to get away from the Hellhole for a while, I never really know much about Things like Motorcycles, but i have been helping my dad work on a Harley davidson oh it was so cool! >w<
I even know how to play major Riffs on Guitar now lol.
When i was younger, i never knew how my parents actually broke up, Cause mom always changes her story, and dad never told me, so when we were working on the harley together, i sat back and asked him.
He told me.
Well, and i found out, he didnt walk out when my mom was born..she lyed to me..
Okay, my dad always worked in a plastic factory, 16 dollars an hour for mom, mom didnt have a job at the time, and sence she just turned 20 when she had me, dad always helped her out, so a while after that, she wanted to try cause dad asked her, because he cant afford all this at ounce, so her friend got her a job at Mc Donalds, and dad had to drive her thier after work every day, He became really tighred cause i always kept him up constantly..And such..so she said that her "Friends" will drive her thier, dad thought "Oh that would be great... untill one day a car pulled out about up the street, and the streets always quiet so dad looked outside, and saw that thier was only one head in the car...about...20 minuets later he saw another come up..and guess who walked out of the car? My mom..Yeah...
Well..thinking back on this..finally knowing both sides of the story makes me think alot, i really think that my fathers telling the truth, cause whenever i mention anything to mom she snapps at me or something.
Now today, on saturday, me and dad worked on the bike together hahaha, and kept forgetting parts!
but now everythings perfect! and it should be able to ride on in the summer hopegfully!
Grease is a BITCH to wash off!!
My two step sisters Lilly and Amanda decided to paint my nails when i fell asleep o_o;
And amanda always calls me Pete..You know Pete from fallout boy O.o; Its so wierd how fangirls are!
hahaha other then that.
I found the best shampoo! called Tea Tree, oh it works awesome! Got the grease off my arms..hair...face...hands...lol
but the soap burns! XD And it has a Minty smell to it..But it works!
right now i finally got myself ahold of a COMPUTER!~ WHOO!
My dads girlfriend Coreen is babysitting these little kids,and the little ones invited me over so i can help out in watching them o_o; THIS HOUSE IS HUGE!!
Ahahahaha! But am going to have to log out in a few seconts because..
1) The owner of the houses computer
2) Am supposed to be helping to watch these little Demons
3) OMFG EASTER EGG PAINTING IM RIGHT THIER~~ <3
Lol..*cough* you never heard that.. allright
Peace
Logging out.
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